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hmm..after 3 wks, working life much better.. alhamdulillah..

yg x best nye, heart wise..haha..i hate ths! when the problem that ruin my life is heart wise! x suke! i know that me myself let ths feeling spread away in mylife...but, do i have any choice? feel like too much doubt! and he's not at all trying to act or response to ths.. why? why? why? oo00000o00000000hhhhhhhhhhhh....why? help me!

pnat dh hati ini cuba berkata yg +ve..tp..apakah salah ku? hmm...satukanlah hati kami ya allah..pjg kan jodoh kami hingga ke akhir hayat..amien.. berikanlah aku kekuatan utk kisah kali ini ya allah... sesungguhnya Kau maha mengetahui..

:: hati kecil ini sentiasa sedih bila mana memikirkan dia..apakah aku terlalu sensitif? sensitive? thats not me! not at all!! :'( apakah kisah seterusnya? moga ada sinar bahagia buat kami d hari esok.. insya allah ::

after 2 wks...

salam..

hmm..alhamdulillah..aftr 2 wks, i feel much2 better than before..relationship with ppl here also getting better..alhamdulillah, kullu kuais..hehe..dh byk gak words arab yg dpt..slowly2 i can start to enjoy ths location..syukur kepada Allah kerana telah memudahkan segala urusanku d sini..especially utk solat n toilet..alhamdulillah..moga Allah sentiasa menerima doaku...amien..

hr ni ada sorg local ppl, prempuan, dia tanya, knape aku keje kat sini..dia kata tpt ni x sesuai utk aku, sbb tpt ni x bagus..hidup susah kat sini..apa nk jwb? hehe..kata laa, sbb keje dtg sini..bkn nk dtg saje2..hihihi...but its true..life kat sini mmg hard..kekadang smpi aku terpk, ya Allah, kesian nye diorg..blh diorg hidup dlm keadaan mcm ni..tp pk2 balik, ni lah kuasa Allah..mereka sgt hormat pd tetamu..sgt hormat pd org luar..sentiasa memberi salam..cuma environment sekeliling je yg buatkan aku rasa pd awalnye, sgt x selesa hidup d sini..tp nk x nak, kene laa sesuaikan diri gak sbb aku akan dok kat sini smpi job ni abes..haha..lama tuuu...job kali ni maybe mkn masa stahun sbb job ni besar prospect nye..xpe laa...life must go on.. bkn selamanye kat sini pun..huk3..kan..kan..

erm..smlm aku g jmpa crew manager, tanya pasal rotation aku kali ni..dia kata maybe 6 wks, n possible 7 wks..haha..dh tu bila aku nye break sbnrnya? aftr 6wks or 7 wks? kui3...xpe..bior laa..asalkan hjg bulan 2 aku tau aku akan balik kl..makkkkk, adik nk mkn mcm2...rindu nye kat kl!! hargailah kehidupan sekeliling kita sblm ia hilang... aha, samb balik story ngan crew manager tu...tgh sembang2 ngan dia, tetiba dia tanya, hows field life? aku jwb laa ngan jujur nye, much better now compared to my 1st day on the field..pastu aku ckp laa, since kat sini masjid merata2, sng laa aku nk semayang n toilet..pastu dia tanya balik, u think u can survive or not on the field? erk? apakah dia melihat aku x leh survive? hahaha..tau laa 2 pompuan lg kat crew ni dok opis..x kan nk suh aku tuka dok opis gak..nk jd apa? haha..saba2..i will transfer to the office..but not now.. aku jwb kat dia, yes, i must survive..can or not its not the main point, but i have to do it..because ths is my job.. then dia kata, great! hahaha..gelak2 je laa kan..dh tu nk ckp apa..hihihi...alhamdulillah, moga d permudahkan segala urusanku d sini..insya allah...

hmm..tp mmg laa kat sini..d sbbkan aku pompuan, bila aku wat keje skalik ngan labour worker, sume local ppl akan pandang mcm terkejut je...hahaha..agaknye dlm hati diorg, apa pasal ada pompuan plak..sorg plak tu..naseb baik pakai tudung..hehe..ada laa rasa respectation sket kan..tp angguk2 geleng2 je laa...haha..aku dh laa paham sket2 je arab ni..aku ckp sket je ngan diorg, skalik diorg balas balik, mak aih, x phm langsung! haha..xpe..slow2 su..lama2 sok expert laa..hehe..

ok..nant samb lg..nk settlekan apa yg patut..dh isyak pun..

insya allah, moga d permudahkan sgala urusanku d sini..amien..

:: Ya Allah, berilah aku kekuatan, ketabahan dan ketenangan dlm menghadapi segala cabaran dan dugaan Mu ini...berkatilah rezki ku ini ya Allah..lindungilah diriku dr sebarang malapetaka yg bahaya..sesunggunya hanya pd Mu tempat ku memohon pertolongan dan perlindungan...amien..ya Rabbal 'alamien.. ::

new location..

Salam..

adaptation is hard? yeah! now i can feel it.. is quite hard when u move from desert to agriculture area..2 diffrnt country..different rich level..haha..tu laa diaa..dulu dok uae, skrg dok egypt..pening trus..xpe laa.. whatever it is, i still have to cope with all ths new situation.. so far aftr 2 nights, i feel a lil bit comfortable.. alhamdulillah..

my new place, Mustafa Ismail agriculture village, Alexandria, Egypt.. thats the name..sekeliling camp ni kwsn pertanian.. blkg toilet area, ada sheeps..byk sgt kambing biri2..baba black sheeps...huhuhu..skrg musim sejuk..pastu hujan lg..ish3..dasyat laa tpt ni..sepjg masa bila berckp ada asap2 kuar dr mulut..haha..can u imagine how cold ths place? erm..bila mlm 3 deg celcius, tu normal temperature tu...oklah..cont later..ada explosive training pasnih..tata..

:: Ya Allah, berilah kekuatan, ketabahan, dan ketenangan pada hambamu ini dlm menghadapi segala cabaran dan dugaan yg mendatang...amien.. ::

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hmm.. the vacation is end soon.. tomorrow night i'll fly back to my new crew.. new year with new country and new spirit.. 12hrs 45mins flight from KL to Cairo..whew..a very long flight... moga selamat sepjg perjalanan.. insya Allah.. i have to focus, be strong, never give up, n take it easy for all thgs that i'll facing soon.. moga d permudahkan Allah segala urusanku...amien..

one week more, he will start new job at new place.. moga segalanya d permudahkan Allah.. hmm.. insya Allah, moga Allah trus satukan hati kami, dan pjgkan jodoh kami hingga ke akhirnya.. amien...

yeahh... go su Go!! yess, u can do it!! believe in urself dear.. insya allah.. u'll able to adapt with new environment in Egypt soon!....

01 01 2008

Happy New Year! to all... May ths new year bring you happiness, prosperity n joy..may Allah bless you always..

hmm..already in year 2008.. plus 1 to my age and others.. hehe..n the most important thing is...I can start counting the days for me to work harder and try my best to achieve the job target!! so that I can reach the desired level before its late.. n yet I can involve myself into marriage..yeah! Go Su Go!! yess you can! Insya allah, within ths 2 yrs..hopefully evrythg will go smoothly.. amien.. moga Allah terus satukan hati kami dan pjg kan jodoh kami hingga ke akhirnya...

My target for ths year, mesti naik grade, mesti naik gaji, ada saving yg cukup byk...i have to learn how to make a great saving n become a great saver!! hoho~ 2008 is time for saving...sbb 2009 nk belik umah dh.. ready utk kawen plak pastu..huhu..insya allah..

just wait n see... what will happend within ths next 2 years..


:: 01 01 2010 moga ianya menjadi kenyataan..Insya Allah..amien ::